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Name: ~*Casey
Country: United States
State: Nebraska
Gender: Female
Interests: Music, Snowboarding, Jetskiing, Poetry, 4wheeling, mudding.. Some favorite bands/Singers: *Deftones,*Hawthorne Heights,*Matchbook Romance,*Vendetta Red,*Akon,*Josh Gracin,*Gary Allan,*Rihanna..
Occupation: Other
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
10/25/2004
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| *A Day to Be Alone*
She said I wonder when
It'll be my day
Cause I'm not too far from breaking down
And all I've got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I wondered if I'll always feel this way, this way
Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me
One day you're gonna see things my way
You gave me so much room that I can breathe
All I've got is pictures of you
I was nothing before and I started with you
But for some reason, it's supposed to be that way, that way
Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me
If I could shrink it down
And put it in your hands
We made it hurt so much
I can't forget the past
Just tell me what to say, show me what to do
Then I could forgive me and I could forgive you
Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me | | |
| humm...well..have to say it's been forever since i've been on here. Not too much has been going on, just been busy with work lately. That's all i ever seem to do anymore is work! This last weekend was pretty un-eventful, babysat pretty much the whole time..only time i had any "free" time was sunday. So yeah, not too much going on at all. Humm..Matt & I split up yesterday, decided that it would be best if we were friends, to tell you the truth there was a part of me that wanted it to all work out and everything but then there was a part of me that knew that it wasn't going to, i can't really explaine it..*sigh* Humm...what else? Other than that nothing has been really going on other than work. So i guess i'll close this out now and write again sometime when i'm on this thing again! Until then..hope everyone is having a great week so far and happy holidays! | | |
| Well as you can tell I'm not on here all that much..if at all for that matter..So if you all want to reach me i'm now at myspace! My url is: www.myspace.com/lucky_021 so go there to catch me! Hope all is well with everyone..buh~bye~ | | |
| Haven't posted any of my poems lately, so i thought i'd put one on here for once. Hope you all enjoy!!
Push me out from the darkness to a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someones finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real and I want you to know that I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue 'till it bleeds and i doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are the feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you
I've spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day to late 'cause now I see that all you really want
Is to see me dangle
What would you need me for?
I could call, but i know you won't be there to pick up the phone
I hate myself for loving you like this
I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you, just enough to love you.
-+August 1, 2004+-
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~*Poison Spring*~
Yesterday I lived all unawares
in bliss and knew it not.
My eyes filled with the glories
that were all the tomorrows
Which may never be
Drinking down every drop
of that joy that becomes yesterday.
Heedless and unknowing
I drank from a poisoned spring
Enraptured by the sweetest taste
(masking death's quiet promise),
toasting a perilous beauty
of so many nights to come.
Who poured you this libation?
Tainted, it drips
from the lips of an angel
(whos wings are black and broken)
and tasting the tomorrow's
Which may never be..
-+October 10, 2004+- | | |
| ~The One~
(Karen Manno/Billy Lee)
No rush though I need your touch
I won't rush your heart
Until you feel on solid ground
Until your strength is found
I'll fill those canyons in your soul
Like a river lead you home
And I'll walk a step behind
In the shadows so you shine
Just ask it will be done
And I will prove my love
Until you're sure that I'm "the one"
Somebody else was here before
They treated you unkind
And broken wings need time to heal
Before a heart can fly
I'll fill those canyons in your soul
Like a river lead you home
And I'll walk a step behind
In the shadows so you shine
Just ask it will be done
And I will prove my love
Until you're sure that I'm "the one"
Trust in me and you'll find a heart so true
All I want to do is give the best of me to you
And stand beside you
Just ask it will be done
And I will prove my love
Until you're sure that I'm "the one"
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Well, this weekend was a pretty good one, went out on Friday night for a little bit and then on Saturday me and Sammi went out..Ran into Samantha Bruner over at RentWay and talked to her for alittle bit, got to talk to Chris, one of her friends, that has a 69 camaro..it's sexy..lol..but yeah..Dropped Sam off at her house around 11:30 or so and then i went and drove around for alittle bit longer, then came home alittle after midnight and talked to Christian and Shannon for a little bit..then around 1:25 I decided to give Stu a call..we ended up talking for a little over an hour & 1/2. It was good to talk to him again, he said that they pushed his deployment date back again, now he is leaving either at the end of April or the beginning of May. They were origionally supposed to leave in January..So, he's been getting ready for that and everything..Said that he will be over there(Okinawa Japan) for 8 months, so if they leave when they are supposed to that he will be back either in November or December sometime. I wish i could see him before he leave, or when he gets back, either way works! *hehe* :) I still think about him each day, wondering how he is and everything..i miss him..I just hope that we keep in touch after he leaves and everything. I'm supposed to call him tonight when i get home from work, so I'm excited about that! :) I dunno, with him, it's different, because i can sit there and talk to him about pretty much anything, and with most other guys(other than close guys friends) i can't do that..like, with guys that i like or whatever i can't sit there and open up to them like i can with Stu..i don't know what to do or what i should do..*sigh* humm..well i better finish up this post and go get ready for work.!!.!!. Until next time...
[time]: 2:56 pm
[mood]: happy & kind of confused
[quote]: "I'll always be here for you standing strong..."
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